For a long time I've been focusing on the sentence, "What is the cost of your disobedience?" and reading Jonah and in some ways it has helped.
In some ways it doesn't help. It makes it easy to focus on failure and guilt.
I also realized I have never gotten around to that quiet time. I have a lot of disciplines I keep doing, but I haven't done that time of silence. And maybe that's why I keep telling people I don't know for sure yet whether I'm going back.